INSANITY...STILL IN ME

It took me a lot of time to finish this piece. Well, just try to understand this piece of writing because I’m not that good in English and one more insanity (huh?)... still in me while doing this… Hehehe… Thanks!

Lots of people know how to give value. To bestow importance to a thing and particularly to somebody who became part of their existence. There are some people who truly show how much they care to a name who became a piece of them. But then again, there are some who seems as if they don't care, but in reality, they do care in hush.

Have you ever notice why there are some people, in whom you're trying to show how much you care, but motionless, they took it for granted? Perhaps, because they are annoyed to you, for the grounds of annoyance, they pay no attention to all the worries and concerns you're trying to exemplify.

Maybe, they close their eyes to all your care and concern for the reason that you mean zilch to them. However, seems it is not fair to utter that you signify nothing to them that is why they took you for granted. Perhaps, you did something in the past that hurts them and as revenge; At this juncture... they try to disregard you. And to disregard you is one of their ways on how to forget you, particularly, the awful thing that you've done before that really impaired them. Nevertheless, is not also fair for you to be disregarded by them, mostly, all the worries and concern you trying to attest. If ever you did something erroneous in the past, no hesitation, you beseech for clemency. Though it is not easy to exonerate, but once love converse, the whole thing will spin out to be simple, except, pride speaks... everything will twist into adversity.

Several people whom you show care and concern can't comprehend why you do that stuff and they persist to disregard it. Can't they realize that the worries and concern that your trying to show to them merely because you're trying to keep the out of the ordinary something that you had before? Can't they appreciate that showing worries and concern also means they're still into you? If they do, why they do keep you in pain, why they do remain in silence and let you be familiar with nothing concerning them, which breaks your heart into pieces and packed down your feeling every time they disregard you? Are they too dense to know that all you wish is for them to be thankful about the things that you do and be grateful for all your concern to them? Aren't they happy that after the awful times, until now, the importance you gave them before was still present? Why they do keep in hush and let you know nothing regarding their position? They keep ignoring you, are they happy to that setup? Why they can't be fair? Can't they realize the pain that they caused you? Well, probably, you really mean zilch to them and they are glad to perceive you suffering.

Easy... come up for air, what will you do to this state of affair? You're trying to prove how greatly you care for them but they took it for granted? Think of it, it hurts, right? Why they treated you as nil but you turn out to be a piece of them? Remain, don't get barmy, and relax! Don't be too much affected to that, for the reason that it will just turn your world upturned. Give them what they yearn for, if they want to ignore you, let them, at least on your part, you did your best that you want to show them you're still at hand and they will constantly be in you. Seek to understand that what they're doing is revenge because you also did something that hurts them, and maybe to ignore you is the best means for them to build a space between you and for them to start something new in their days.

Learn from your past and be alive for the future. Be fair to your self, start to live the way you live your days before. If people ignore you because of what you did in the past that hurts them and you already ask for pardon but yet they ignore it... let them. Stop hurting your self. Let the time heal the wounds, just treasure the good times and bad times you shared in the past and be thankful your paths crossed. And whatever happens, you'll always be a piece of them and so they are.